Restless and Ill-temperd

I've grown restless and ill-tempered. I have tried to pull these handicaps away from everyone but doing so compounds the problems. I don't want to explain my trivial life's aliments to those with a fragile calm but holding it back is hardening the response, shortening opportunties to mere reactions. I don't want to sit. I don't want to stand. I don't want to be awake and I don't want to sleep.